Let the Hormones Begin!

I’m surprised it took this long. I just hit the 16-week mark yesterday, and today I had my first mini-breakdown. It just came completely out of the blue.

I’d convinced Andy to take a walk with me downtown to return a movie we’d rented on Friday (I wanted to get some exercise and fresh air since it was a balmy 14 degrees, which felt warm after our recent spate of sub-zero weather. Plus, I consumed close to my weight in meat and veggies at the Korean bbq place last night, so I really needed to burn some calories). We went upstairs to bundle up, and I pulled my long underwear, a long-sleeved shirt, a sweatshirt and my last pair of non-maternity jeans that stil fits (with the help of a rubber band) out of our walk-in closet. The thing about this closet is that the doorframe is so low that you have to bend down a little to walk in and out or else you’ll smack your head. Well, as I’ve done many times before, I forgot.

Usually I just suck it up and laugh off the pain or let out a highly unladylike curse, but today I walked over to the bed, curled up in a ball and started crying. And I just couldn’t stop. Andy was completely flummoxed. He hates to see me cry and he was worried that I’d really hurt myself. I explained, between snotty sniffles, that it didn’t really hurt that much and no, I wasn’t sad about anything in particular, I just couldn’t get rid of that weepy feeling. He hugged me and talked to me and made me laugh, and I’d start to come out of it, but after a minute or so the weepy feeling would come back.

Finally I said we’d better just get going with our walk or we’d be there all day. I shook it off and we took our walk and I was fine the rest of the day. But I think it’s probably a preview of things to come – sometimes, those hormones are just going to get the better of me. I mentioned it to Becca when she called tonight, and she laughed and said, “Just wait until AFTER the baby comes. That’s when that kind of thing will really happen.” Ah, so much to look forward to!  Besides all the REALLY good stuff, I mean